Back To The Grind

Well, I did it. I registered for classes again. What? You thought I was going to say I finally lost my mind? Well, maybe that's right, too. Anyway, I had to sign up for classes before all my information was discarded and if I ever wanted to go back, I'd have to re-start the application process over. In the words of Sweet Brown, "Ain't nobody got time for dat." So here I am...

trying not to freak out.

There's no sense in worrying, but I can't help but wonder how in the world I'm going to go to school with two babies. I've heard people say that this school is "easy"- it's all online after all- but nothing could be further from the truth. It's time consuming- very much so and when you have a family to take care of, there's nothing easy about that. I haven't taken graduate classes in over a year. I'm out of practice. I was comfortable not having any goals other than "make it through the day" or even "make it until nap time." Now, the reality is back in my face. This isn't over yet. It has just begun and I still have a lot of work ahead of me.

I want so desperately to keep my 4.0 average. That's my goal right now.

Wish me luck (and send up some prayers if you would!) in my studies. I hope I'm not in over my head. I feel like I am.

Not to mention our bank account just took a pretty significant nose dive. 

Let's talk about that, shall we? 

Oh, I bet it's divine. You should try it. Just sayin'.

(Thanks for all the facebook encouragement. Y'all are the best!)

Happy, Happy New Year

A new year typically brings a new perspective, if only temporary. I've never been one to be serious about making goals and keeping them on New Years, but I do use the first of the year as inspiration to change up my routine a bit and think about what I want to change. I think of them more as suggestions rather than long term goals. Less pressure that way.
I had a great 2012. We finished up our time in the Army and Louisiana. We watched our eldest grow and welcomed Baby A into our family, making us complete. I celebrated with my grandparents as they reached their 50th wedding anniversary milestone. It was a good year.

For 2013, I want to:

1. Read More, Watch Less. I think I'll set my book goal at 35 for this year...and get rid of cable.
2. Get in shape. Having two babies so close together has left my body a little more squishy than I'd like. I'm going to change that this year.
3. Better myself as a wife and mother. I want to cherish these fleeting moments with my babies. I also want to chill out and enjoy my husband more. It's so easy to slip into schedule mode- we've got to do this, A needs that, K needs this, work work work. It's no way to live!

I hope you all are enjoying the New Year. Mrs. K and Captain J has some exciting things happening in the near future so I'm glad you're around to witness it. I've got a new look coming as well as celebratory giveaways! If you'd like to be a part of the giveaways, let me know. I'd love to make this relaunch a big event!

Happy 2013, y'all!

A change will do you good

I don't do resolutions. Seriously. I think of things that I can improve about myself and then I snicker and throw the idea in the proverbial trash and toss a match in it for good measure. I'm terrible. There were many goals that I toyed with, but ultimately I never really set my mind toward any particular goal. I much prefer the mentality of 'one day at a time' and that seems to work alright for me.

One thing that I definitely need and want to work on is my marriage. A facet of this is making sure I look my best for my husband. It may sound backward to you or desperate.  It may sound superficial, but I want to look good for Captain J. Of course, he tells me how attracted to me he is all the time, but since Baby K arrived, I've felt pretty blah. I am good to get through the day, much less work out or look nice when he arrives home from work. Forget dinner on the table. This area of my life has been sorely lacking. He doesn't ask me for any of these things, but it's just something that I know I need to change for him AND for me.

I actually got dressed today. Usually you can find me lounging around the house in sweatpants and a tee. I may or may not have spit up running down my shoulder. I may or may not have brushed my hair. It's bad, folks. But today, I found time to semi-fix my hair and put on clothes I wouldn't be ashamed of in front of the general population. Today, I feel like a person.



When the UPS guy dropped off a package earlier, I actually ran to the door instead of hiding under the couch in fear of being discovered as the hot mess I am was.

He didn't acknowledge me as he hopped in his truck and drove off, but me? I knew it was a big step. I can't live in pajamas forever. I so desperately wanted to be that girl who pops out her child, instantly becomes supermom, and still keeps being fabulous. I'm afraid that's going to take some time for me.

BUT...

These past few days have felt a little more bearable. K has been oddly content. *knock on wood* There has been less screaming, less puking, and less stress. I have had time in my day. It has been a welcomed change. It gives me hope that I can focus on my interests again. I can work on writing something other than brain unload. Maybe I can get dressed more often. Maybe I can actually workout again. Perhaps Captain J can come home to a clean house AND a hot wife! Oh, the possibilities.

This is just one of the changes I'd like to make in 2012.

Is it superficial? Perhaps. But I need to feel like myself again.

P.S. Who sang the title of this post in your best Sheryl Crow voice? No one? Ok, me either.