Friday, November 30, 2012

Gone Girl


Synopsis: Former city girl, Amy Dunne, is planning a delightful surprise for her husband, Nick on what will be their fifth wedding anniversary. She outdoes herself with preparations for the scavenger hunt and gifts that she thoughtfully pieced together each year. Nick doesn't get her help in deciphering the clues she has given because his lovely wife turns up missing the morning of their big day. The story is huge for the Missouri town mostly because Nick isn't exactly looking squeaky clean. He pictures her head, smashed and bleeding. His thoughts of his wife aren't centered around the good times rather he continues to remember everything he didn't like about "Amazing Amy". Nick begins to spin his web of lies in order to prove his innocence, but he only manages to make himself look incredibly guilty in the eyes of the public, police, and eventually Amy's attentive family. Was Nick the killer? Or did so many other shady characters from Amy's past have something to do with her disappearance?

My Thoughts: Loved, loved this book. The author, Gillian Flynn, has perfectly crafted this story with smart writing and interesting turns of events. This was one of those books that I was sad to finish. It was brilliant...and it made me want to go immediately to the computer and start my own fiction novel.

The best part-- Reese Witherspoon is said to be the producer for Gone Girl the movie! I hope this story is played out well on the big screen as I think it has potential to be an excellent movie. Be sure to read the book before seeing it, though. We all know how movies rarely ever measure up to their literary counterparts!

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Thursday, November 29, 2012

What's New!

 I'm amazed at what a difference a year makes:
This is a photo of my boys last December at the dog park in my hometown. This year I'll have three men in my life come December! Wow.
I'm anxious to see how these glasses look on me:

I jumped on the firmoo bandwagon after K broke my glasses recently. For 8 bucks, I figure it can't hurt! Cray K has been on a roll lately. He also broke my iPhone yesterday.
I'm reading: 
It's good. I'm about 64% done. I purchased it for the hospital. Perhaps it will last that long, but I might finish it up this weekend instead. Speaking of books, I have a review that is set to post for you all tomorrow! I'll be reviewing Gone Girl.
You need it in your life.
My nails look like this:
Essie Sand Tropez and OPI A Million Sparkles
I have a new post over here:

and last but not least, I'm currently at:
the doctor's office having what I hope is my last appointment before I meet Baby A for the first time. Wish me luck.

Happy Thursday!


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I Cannot Help It


All day I have cleaned because I couldn't come here. Maybe you would say I'm nesting, but me? I know better. Baby A feels so far away. I haven't had any contractions. Aside from a little nausea this morning, I've felt pretty good. It has been my best day in a long while. This is supposed to be good news and I'll admit, it was nice, but at the same time I'm wondering why. I wonder why I had contractions so often when it was too early for him to come, worrying myself into a frenzy. Now that he is full term, it's like he's going to be in there forever. I know he's not. I'm told I'll meet him in just six short days, but it has yet to feel real.

And so I cleaned today.

What I really wanted to do was come to the keyboard and type. I wanted to say so much, but I knew you didn't want to hear it. I tried to stay away, but I couldn't and now here I am.


Health Goals-

Lovely Tuesday morning to all of ya! Today I'm blogging over at The Finish Line. I was excited that Becca allowed me to take over her space for the day to discuss the evolution of my own health goals. She is easily one of my very favorite bloggers and an awesome writer. I hope you'll go check out her page and leave some love.

I revisited this old memory and many others in the post:


Anyway, Cray K is banging on my belly and hanging on my elbow screaming. I must retreat! Until next time...

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Holiday Fun

I'm sure you're wondering just where in the world my Thanksgiving recap post is. If so, look no further. You've arrived. We made lots of good ole Paula Deen food and really indulged ourselves. And when I say we, I don't mean me. Captain J did almost all of the cooking. His mom brought with them some gravy and stuffing, but the rest of the chow was made by that delightful husband of mine. Seriously, I didn't lift a finger. It was awesome.

We fried a turkey (again I didn't...I tried to nap)...


We gathered 'round the food...


We were merry. Cray K wanted nothing to do with mashed potatoes, sweet potato souffle, salad, turkey, gravy, stuffing, stuffed mushrooms, cheddar and chive biscuits, banana cream pie, cranberry sauce, and/or pecan bars. THIS CHILD. I mean, what 15 month old doesn't like mashed potatoes? He's going to have a rough time fitting in if we ever move back to the real south. Bless his heart.

I went to bed with a full tummy only to wake up the next morning to go to a doctor appointment telling me that I had lost weight over the holiday! Score?

That day, Captain J and I got some much needed time alone thanks to his parents watching the little one for us. K did so well with them. I've heard tell that he didn't cry until about five minutes before we got home. It was a glorious couple of hours where we could pretend we were back in our carefree dating days (well, ya know, aside from my massive pregnant middle). First, we treated ourselves to Starbucks. Decaf Pumpkin Spice Latte, thank you very much. Then, we drove off toward the local movie theatre to see...


I know, I know. I'm that girl. Allow me to explain-

The movies aren't that good. I know this, but I can't simply stop seeing them. I read the books after a quite depressing Harry Potter hangover. I was grasping at straws trying to find another saga to throw myself into. While the books are no Harry Potter, they were decent enough to help with the sting.

I'm glad the movies are over. Breaking Dawn Part 2 was pretty good. The first five minutes were completely cheesy and I wondered if I would make it through the rest of the movie without having to fight the urge to roll my eyes. It got a lot better and I'm happy to have gotten the opportunity to see it on the big screen. That's a rarity in my life these days, ya know.



The following day, Captain J's parents left to head back home, but not before gifting me with this lovely shade of red:

It's called An Affair in Red Square and it's now gracing my newly chewed fingernails. Ugh. Let the process of not biting my nails begin again. I love this color. It's a festive, smooth red.

What's up with you? How was your Thanksgiving holiday?

Saturday, November 24, 2012

The End Is Near!

Ouch.

The bottom has dropped out. It's not like when I had Cray K. He had me in bed the last few weeks of my pregnancy due to hypertension. This sweet babe I'm carrying now has gone a little easy on me in that department. However, my intense back pain, BH contractions, and high heart rate make me wonder which side of the coin is worse. If there's one thing I want to be more mindful of from now on, it's my health. It's so easy to take it for granted until it's gone.

Tonight I woke up with acid reflux for the first time in my life. It's 3am as I'm typing and I've been up forever, trying to ignore the awful burning sensation in my mouth and throat. Oh, but there's an end in sight!

I went to the doctor today. If I haven't had Baby A in 9 days, I'll be induced! December 3rd is the big day which is doubly special for me because it's also my mom's birthday! Even though I know having two young kids over Christmas, during a move, and during our transition from military life to civilian life is going to be absolutely crazy, I still can't wait to meet my second little man. I look forward to looking into his eyes and battling with my husband over who he looks like most.

I really want my body back, too. Everything aches.

I've begun to lose weight which I didn't think was supposed to happen in the last weeks (and over Thanksgiving!) but I'm up about 35 lbs with this baby and the doctor isn't concerned. Thankfully, my blood pressure is pretty good this time around and I'm showing very few signs of preeclampsia.

All good news! I'll focus on that.

Perhaps these tums have finally kicked in and I'll be able to get back to sleep. Only 9 more nights to get a full night sleep, ya know. Wish me luck.

Thanks for putting up with my pregnancy posts-- especially the middle-of-the-night, complainy ones. The end is near! And I have a feeling that the beginning will contain loads of cute, squishy newborn photos. Just a guess.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Maternity Photo Shoot

A local photographer asked me to help build up her portfolio by taking some maternity and newborn shots. I was thrilled! Well, initially I wasn't THAT excited about photos of myself as I feel like a big fat cow....

but after promising we wouldn't do any bare belly shots or anything like that, she talked me into posing for her and I'm so glad I did. It was really fun! I got a break from Cray K and some much needed girl time in. It was so nice to have someone new to chat with. I am pleased with the photos she captured, too. Here's a little preview-
If you're in the area, be sure to look up Jaclyn Culver Photography on Facebook.

Anyway, I don't have a lot to say today, but you can find me here if you'd like-


I'm off to enjoy one of my last days as a family of three. Captain J is off work so I'm happy to have this time with him...if he would just quit tickling me!

We'll chat soon.
XOXO,

Monday, November 19, 2012

We're moving to...

When emails pile up, financial tasks need to be done, last minute baby preps are abundant, and my Scentsy business begs to be organized, the first thing to go was blogging. It's only been a few days, but I missed this space and I'm happy to be back with pretty good news.

If you've been following along here long enough, you know that Captain J is finishing up his service to the Army in January. We've been very nervous yet excited for this new curve in our lives. He spent much time deliberating whether this was the right decision for our family, but ultimately he knew that he didn't want to spend a year away from his sweet son if he didn't have to. That was the deciding factor. He wanted out. I supported this decision and eagerly began daydreaming of moving back to East Tennessee where so many of my friends are and where most of my family resides. We knew we wanted to be close as we've spent all of our relationship away from the ones we love. Alaska--Georgia--Louisiana-- it was time to go home.

Meanwhile, J partnered with a head hunter group to try to get a leg up when it comes to finding a job post Army. This was the beginning of our plans starting to shift. The further he got into the process, the more he became aware what he wants to do, what motivates him, and where we may (or may not) end up. There were slim pickin's in Tennessee as you might imagine. I was actually pretty upset about this until very recently. I wanted to go home! Watch my nephews and niece grow up! Hang with my old pals. Drop the kids off with their grandparents. Spend a Thanksgiving in good ole Loudon for a change.

A couple weeks ago, Captain J nervously set out to a hiring conference unsure of what to expect. If I may brag on my husband for a minute, let me say that I'm so very proud of him. It must be difficult to shift from Infantry Officer to a business mindset after so many years of service in the Army. Thus far, he has excelled at what he has set out to do. He's currently finishing up an MBA, keeping up with his duties at work and home, and he took a few days off to fly all over the country interviewing and kickin' butt at it. We were blessed to have many opportunities, many second and third interviews! After much deliberation, he narrowed his options down to three offers...

none of which were anywhere near "home."

The nearest was Northern Atlanta, but the work hours were depressing to say the least. In addition, we had already lived near there back when we were stationed at Ft. Benning for MCCC. We didn't love the area, but it was nice to be within driving distance of our hometowns. Still, it was a fiasco just trying to get home. It was about a four hour drive and that was before we had kids. That margin of time would only grow. We imagined being pretty close to home but never actually being able to go home due to the long work hours J was facing. Finally, we were swayed by insanely cheap real estate in...

Sunny Florida!

Source: google.com via Ashley on Pinterest


I'm kidding, sort of. J, of course, didn't choose his next job because of real estate there. Still, we have weighed our options and landed on the job that will take us to the Jacksonville area. I'll be honest- at first I was pretty sad. I'm a country mouse at heart. I have never had much of a desire to live in a big city. I feel most at home in the mountains and I desperately wanted four seasons. Mostly, I wanted K & A to know their family well. Over the past week, however, I've begun to accept and be happy about this change. J told me he wasn't too fond of living too close to where he grew up and I understand why he feels that way. Anyway, I'm beginning to picture our lives as a family of four in a warm climate with palm trees and plenty of opportunity to soak up some rays on my soon-to-be toned body again (Ok, perhaps I'm slightly delusional still). The point is, I can finally brush aside the dark clouds surrounding my mind and focus on the fact that this is a blessing. We'll get back to TN eventually, but until then-

God has provided for us yet again. With so many people struggling in this lowly economy, we worried it might be difficult to find work. Not only did J have multiple job offers, but I also truly believe now that God wants us to be in Northern Florida. We are excited about finding a church family there that is closer to what we are looking for from a congregation. We look forward to finding a reliable sitter so that we can finally start dating each other again. I've googled Mom and Me groups in the area so K can have that socialization that is ever important at this age. We're looking forward to moving on to what will be our fourth state in three years. Hopefully, we can stay there a bit longer than we've been averaging at previous duty stations! We're ready to have a home.

I hope that we make Florida home to us. I know it's all about perspective and for better or worse, the Cap'n and I are in this together, forever. He is my family. I'm his. We'll be happy any ole place...

Right?

Friday, November 16, 2012

15 Months

Dear K Baby,

I love you, I love you, I love you! Your personality is as strong as ever and I'm blessed enough to be able to nurture it every single day as my sole job. It's amazing. It's also hard work wranglin' you, but we have fun.
Your curiosity is infectious.
Your facial expressions- hilarious. I love the eyebrow lift that you've perfected on both sides when you find something to be amusing. I love the excitement you use when you figure out how to make it work. Oh, the screams can be heard from two houses down! You love to master things all by yourself. When you're really concentrated on a task, you have an adorably cute look on your face and you're usually chewing on your tongue. You get that from me.
Your attitude is something I could model, too. It doesn't matter how many times you get knocked down. You keep happily getting back up...
but you enjoy the ride at the bottom, too. You love your pup and protest when I won't take you out to see her. You like to be outside hearing the leaves crunch under your feet and crawling through dirt just like the stereotypical toddler boy.
Every day it seems as if you're getting taller or reaching some milestone before my very eyes. Don't grow up too fast, child. Toddlerhood is too much fun for that. Thank you for teaching me so much about life in your short 15 months. You've helped me to learn and grow right along with you. You're the best!
Love,
Mom

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Surface Stuff

Sometimes you need a mindless activity, just to keep you busy so you won't dwell on something that's long been on your mind. My problem is--those activities used to be things like laundry, dishes, or cleaning anything really. Now that I'm a parent? I have to think during those chores. That's the only time I have reserved where I can think in strands longer than two minutes. Toddlers will keep you busy. Anyway, what do I do when I don't want to think anymore? When I don't want to dwell- when I'm done caring about a situation?

Lucky you, I blog....about nothing in particular. I just ramble on my online journal for the world to see. So, here's what's been going on in my world...on the surface anyway...

Tuesday I returned to my bible study class after a month(ish) long break from it. It wasn't that I didn't want to go. I truly did...but I kept talking myself out of it because of K's issues in watchcare. I didn't like driving to post, only to have to turn around and come back because he was so upset without me. I decided to try going again and I'm glad I did. It was a nice break from the monotony here at the house. K did pretty well. He stayed in watchcare for two hours and then when he started getting too fussy, they came to get me. I brought him in our class for the rest of the time and he played happily. Those are some of my fellow Resolutions for Women classmates. I find them all to be so sweet and very thoughtful in our discussions. I could learn a lot from each of them! Also? That hair do I'm sportin'? It was a pinterest idea although you can't see mine well-

I'm 37 weeks and really, really feeling it. Some days I have a lot of BH contractions coupled with other "labor ready" symptoms, but I'm not getting my hopes up. My luck I'll go into labor at the exact time I don't want to. God's timing is perfect, though. I believe that so I'm going to attempt to focus on it. At least my husband is home now! He is done interviewing (more on that at a later date!) and gallivanting all over the country. Hallelujah. It's a full time job chasing after, lifting, playing with, and tending to Cray K (as Jenn so affectionately calls him). That one might just stick.

Maybe you need a laugh, too? Last night when K woke up from his nap, I decided he looked a lot like Gary Busey-


Maybe you need some words of wisdom?


This. Exactly. Sometimes it's best to be silent, to ignore. I'm good at this.

How's that for the most random post ever? I'll leave you with something my sister sent me this morning-

Happy Thursday, bloggy loves.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Be Who You Want Them To Be

(Thank you, thank you for your words of wisdom on my last post! I'm still in the process of writing you all back (some of you are no-reply bloggers! tsk tsk) but I'll get there. I do appreciate your thoughtful words. )

Everyone's favorite thing to do on social media for years running is to post what they're thankful for every day in November. Me? I don't want to deal with all those notifications. But isn't Thanksgiving a wonderful time to remember what all we're thankful for (uhhh, duhh)? Yesterday, a friend mentioned that as a society, we probably skip over Thanksgiving to Christmas because- what's commercial about thanking God for His blessings? It's much more like us to want to buy gifts and receive gifts.

I don't want to skip over Thanksgiving here.

Recently, I've been putting little reminders all over our house. Have you seen my mantel? It says, "Give Thanks". On my refrigerator, there's a note scribbled on the dry erase board that reads, "Count your blessings". Plus I can look into the baby blues of my son and have a flood of thankful thoughts consume me. Opportunities are everywhere!

They're not just in the good things of life, though. Realizing you're blessed can come from the negative experiences, too. Yesterday, someone tried to hurt me with words. While it's not the first time, it was the first time that I decided to take that and make something positive of it instead of wallowing in the thinking that nothing will ever change. I prayed to God and asked Him to give me the reaction He wanted. I asked Him to mold me into the person He wanted me to be. You know what He said? He led me to these words-

Isn't that convicting? I started to pray that I could be a better example for K and A. I imagined them as young men and envisioned them being strong yet kind in their interactions with others. I will be their first example to model and I won't mess that up. I look to the examples that I had in my life and feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude that God gave me the mother that He did. She's the voice of reason, the sometimes Pollyanna that I need to hear from (Thanks, Mom). It doesn't stop there, though. I'm also surrounded by other women in my family that I can look up to. For that, I'm forever grateful...and determined to make it that way for my own children, too.

There's no room for bitterness in my house today or any other day. We've got too much to be thankful for!

Monday, November 12, 2012

I Miss Us

This was our last date.
                                                
It was about 6 months ago.

I often tell Captain J that I feel like I'm losing myself a bit when all I do is stay at home with the babe. I don't really have an opportunity to go out with friends sans child. I definitely don't ever get to go out with my love and stare into his eyes and talk about what Baby K did today us, our future, and have the chance to reconnect.

I know that my children are my responsibility, but at the same time- so is my marriage and it seems as if we place that on the back burner because there's no time to focus on us. We don't have a reliable babysitter in the area therefore we do not spend time alone together. Lately, I've read countless articles on the importance of having people around to help when your children are young. We've done a poor job at building that sort of community here at Ft. Polk. I suppose we're both at fault, though. We don't want just anyone watching our entire world. Even when we do have the rare chance to go on a date, we worry most of the time. Is he screaming his little head off, wondering where we are? Is he driving the sitter crazy? The thoughts are endless and we usually end up coming home a lot sooner than expected.

I wonder if we'll be a little more relaxed when Baby A comes along. It doesn't feel like it now. It feels like the obsessive worry will just creep right back in and stay for at least another year- until A is one. Baby K is 15 months now and still I hate to leave him. 

Once a week, I have a bible study group I go to...except I haven't been in almost a month because K yells and yells and yells when I drop him off at the watchcare. After about 20 minutes, the watchcare workers come get me to collect him because he's so upset and inconsolable. My heart starts racing and I feel so overwhelmed, thinking that I am raising a child who isn't well adjusted.
I've studied psychology. I know about child development. With terms and theories floating through my brain, I feel as if I'm failing him. Writing that out just now, I know I'm not yet in the moment, that's all I can think about.

It might not make sense to you, but I miss my husband. Sure, I love our evenings together after the babe has gone to bed...but I want to go out and have dinner like we used to. See a movie. Or (gasp!) both. This isn't feasible right now, but we're hoping that our upcoming move will bring with it more time for us. I will make it a priority to find someone in the area that I can trust with my child. And if not, I guess I'll just never leave the walls of that house, either.

How do you find a good sitter? We don't have the option of having family to keep him so that's out. What's your criteria? I know this is nuts, but sometimes I think that I'll only allow people that have children themselves watch him...or people who have gone to school to study child development, been around kids a lot, and want to watch him instead of being motivated by money or a feeling of- I should do this for them. See? I'm crazy. I have too many rules...and honestly I could go on.

Yesterday, Captain J said, "Maybe when A is a year old, we can take a vacation together. We need that." I nearly cried. We do. But even now as I daydream about it, I know it will never happen. That makes me a little sad.

He's here...a lot...but I still miss him. I miss us.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday Finds and Other Fabulous Things

I've got two deals for ya! The first is for you pregnant and/or nursing mothers. FREE re-usable nursing pads can be scored at Udder Covers. Simply add the 10 pads to your cart and use promo code THANKPADS. I just ordered some and the shipping came out to around $11. Still, a great deal as I would have been paying over $45 for the same items.

The second is for all you military folks out there. In honor of the upcoming Veteran's Day, Hickory Farms has created specific military gift baskets and offers FREE shipping to APO and FPA addresses.

Isn't that fabulous? Here are some other fabulous things...

Muffins at noon:

Cute, festive Scentsy:
(As always, shoot me an email for my personal specials for the month. I'll be placing an order on Wednesday if anyone needs anything!)

A babe that finally hit the hay last night, giving Mama some time to do the nails and browse Pinterest on her new favorite toy:

Purdy sweater I purchased with a birthday GC:

And as always, I think my family is a pretty good find, too! 

What's fabulous in your life today? Go link up with Laura, like I did!

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